Notes from my spiritual journal:

I always liked impossible scenarios. When i was young i looked up to Philippe Petite who tight roped across the world trade centers before they fell. Back then, few knew of him.
Or St Stephen who’s face glowed as was killed because he was staring at God.
I also like failed attempts like St Peters, who started actually walking on water until he started staring at the storm instead of Jesus.
And of course, Phillip who suddenly “appeared” in Africa. These types were always heroes to me.
At this stage of my life the most impossible thing i see—the new tight rope-is a deeper formation of God’s Love in my heart.
All the suffering i see, is now aimed at that end, formation.
God turns out to be the highest tight rope, and being more “in Him” the greatest spiritual stunt.
To really love your neighbor, is nearly impossible, that is, apart from Him, i can do nothing!
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It’s much less about where i go or what i do now; and more about who i am becoming inside, and how i offer those inner tree’s fruits! The eternal ones which may grow in us all.
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My greatest obsession has always been the true identity of things—seeing calling forth and living from that authentic place. Beholding that place in Love, and living from that place and addressing it in others.
I’ve always wanted that deep to deep life with others, nature and with God. The rest keeps floating away and altering, but that space remains.
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Forming fatherhood inside of me, has become my highest goal now. The rest has faded. Expressing that place within, is a passion for me.