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Starts for shorts….

26 Tuesday Aug 2025

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Working on beginning of short stories from real life: Here are a few starts:

Sam was silent. My papaw was like that, unless something came up. And when it did, he could whistle across a whole field. Say he was getting your attention before a train came, or one of the dogs got out and was wandering. Then that whistle would occur. And I say occur, because it was as piercing as church bells in winter. You either thought someone was in trouble, or Jesus was coming back.
Speaking of Jesus, that was the other place my grandfather got loud—at church. He was always given a seat in the Amen corner, where they would cheer the preacher and or The Spirit on. They would get as worked up as the choir in full worship. And he would nearly scream Amen, preach it brother, Amen, give the Word….
Anyway, those are the only two places or times rather, that I heard much out of my Papaw.
//
What happened with you and school? A friend asked. Well, I couldn’t really get good at anything, so I quit I said. Why not? Donna.
All that interested me was girls and a few books and typewriting.
Typewriting?
Yeah, we had a typewriting class, and it was like recess with pretty girls.
Did you actually type?
Sometimes, but mainly it felt like I wasn’t in school any more, so I liked it.
I could even see the exit driveway; and we had a pond I could stare at.
A pond?
Yes, like a small fishing pond, where you could go in the woods and make out with girls, or just skip stones on a more boring day.
//
It’s a stroke of genius, his idea. But I wouldn’t have said so beforehand. We were on the road, as we often were together. He and I shared so many “road” experiences, it had become the only place we really knew one another.
Between Austin and Boston, and later Budapest and Prague, we were always in betweeners.
I’m not sure when it started, maybe when we were kids sneaking out of our bedroom windows to meet up at the corner and look to see whose lights were still on at that odd hour.
Even then, we would try to notice what was a little off—the anomalies, my friend would call then. Look for the anomalies in life. That’s where the keyhole into real things are at. The best of life is a peep show into Reality, he would say later, after his fancy philosophy degree was earned and at times flaunted in front of me.
Even so, I always liked Francis, even when he seemed to think he knew too much. Like all the names of the existentialist in order, for instance. Or, all the major art movements of the 20th Century and their conjoining philosophical systems which informed them.
Still, we just liked one another. I was just more of an artist type, but he was definitely the thinker. Le Penseur incarnate that guy.
He read for ideas, I read for tone; but we both read a lot. And I mean a lot. Sometimes two whole books or collections of essays a day.
This particular day, we were heading to Harvard Square in Cambridge to see some of my dancer friends. They did modern, and as he would say, post modern dance in plain air—you mean they dance outside in the square, I would tell him. So that my other friends didn’t think he was being aloof or pretentious or whatever.
Well, we arrived in the evening when my street performer friend was setting up his high wire act. Which really wasn’t very high, but was more about walking the rope while juggling. Still, it was impressive, and there were limits to how high a wire could be walked in Harvard Square. Limits to art there, but still art.
My friend would bust his boom box and set up his tripods and get right to juggling, once up on the wire.
Another friend of mine, had dated him once. That was a short date, she said, all he wants is to be on the wire. That line stuck with me. And I remembered it tonight as we arrived just in time to see Wayne get up on his wire.
But when we did arrive this time, something felt odd or at least unique. Not ominous, but teeterie. At first, I thought it was the light rain in that weird blue hue that this region harbors. But there was more to it.
We parked in a lot this time, as we weren’t planning on staying long, and walked up and watched from the back of the crowd he had already gathered.
He was playing the beastie boys, and some Prince, and he was mid way through his wonder walk, as he called it. “I will walk you into wonder!” Was the opening line of his act, all these years.
We missed the line, but he was walking the wire well when we arrived, for the record. But just at the end of “Purple Rain” something happened. The wire was shaking like lightening suddenly, and Wayne was looking frazzled. He actually glanced out at his audience, which was a break of his code and habit. Then, suddenly, he fell backward from the small height, and landed right on the back of his head. He wasn’t moving at all then. “Is he dead?” Someone from nowhere shouted. Call 911.
We rushed forwards, breaking through the crown with our elbows. Getting to his body, I put my hand under the back of his head to see if he was bleeding and relieve his neck.
“Wayne are you there? Are you there friend?”
Suddenly he coughed loudly. Every one started cheering.
Then he said something I will never forget.
“Hey man, do I have to fall this hard, to get you here—I mean really here! Well, good to see you nevertheless, but I won’t fall again on your account!”

//

Chavez was in his two toned-mustard and black-For 150 heading to his dad’s funeral. He had managed to bring his son, but not his wife.
She simply refused to support his father’s death.So Chavez had brought a shotgun, not to kill anyone, just to shoot at bottles with his son. That is, to let off steam together. He thought it might be an appropriate ritual, given that his dad was a Marine and all.
So half way to El Paso, he and his son pulled far off the road, and set up some bottles at a distance. “Nobody asks you what you’re doing in that part of the desert.” He had once explained to me. So it’s a good place to blow off steam.
But, this day was more windy than usual, even for that part of Texas.
He had his son Billy set up the bottles at exact coordinates, which he had drawn for him on a napkin.
“A little more to the right or left!” He kept hollering to his son. Ok, perfect.
Come back here.
He drew a line in the sand, and told his son—“Don’t step past this line when shooting!”
And st
and 12 feet away from me, if you are going to fire at will.
His son knew the routine.
They lined themselves up, and began to shoot at the Budweiser cans.
One by one they fell. Mostly by his own gun, but his son’s little riffle was doing well today. He got two out of the 13.
“Go gather the cans son.” He did, and they were back in the truck to head towards the funeral.
They drove another forty miles or so, when the wind picked up to the point, the truck was swaying a bit back and forth in those long shelves or even walls of wind that only Texas can produce.
At one point, he almost wanted to pull off, as the gust felt hurricanal in strength or might.
But he needed to get there an hour early to practice his speech for his father.
So, they just kept driving through it, like a little ship on a bit sea, he thought.
Just about five miles out, something felt odd. There was a shaking on the front right side.
Is it the front tire, he thought, or something up in the carburetor, or what….
And there was a noise with it. Like a rock caught in a glass jar, and then suddenly lots of purple black smoke from the front grill.
Son, we gotta pull off now.
“We may have to wait to bury the dead” he just suddenly said, for no reason.
They pulled off, and got away from the truck for a five minutes until it cooled.
As they were just there, standing away from the truck, his wife called.
“Hey, honey, I’m on the way, I just couldn’t bare the feeling of you two men down there in the desert burying your father by yourselves. How are you. Do you have your speech down? I’m heading down in the other truck. You need anything?”

Napkin notes from today…

14 Thursday Aug 2025

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Napkin poems from today:

It just happened
A little tiny toad
Leaped on my hand
While gardening today. I
Was trying to access its weight in waiting.
They are always about to leap, frogs. So
You aren’t sure what they weigh. But it waited long enough
For me to sense the weight of the breath of life
At least, on my hand today. And then we, both, moved on
But it just happened.
//
“When you really fall asleep,
It’s like the world goes silent.”
My wife said to me today.
Not sure if that is good or bad
Maybe I talk too much when awake
But regardless, her words, strangely
Moved me.
//
I’ll return as soon as I am cognizant. Love said.
//
Baby yellow butterfly on red turk’s cap’s pinkish tips
And ants beneath her
Not to mention doves trying to land on spinning bird feeder nearby
And then clouds and volcanoes somewhere else rolling/erupting…
All proclaiming still, it is today.
//
Go slowly today
Until you really
Need to speed up.
For love’s sake, go!—both
Slow and fast.
//
The crooked tree in my backyard
Is trying its best with what it has been given
Between the mighty oaks and pecans
It can barely lean towards sun
And grow in between things upwards as it can
But what looks like sideways to the rest of us.

notes from sleep today….

14 Thursday Aug 2025

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It just happened
A little tiny toad
Leaped on my hand
While gardening today. I
Was trying to access its weight in waiting.
They are always about to leap, frogs. So
You aren’t sure what they weigh. But it waited long enough
For me to sense the weight of the breath of life
At least, on my hand today. And then we, both, moved on
But it just happened.

“When you really fall asleep,
It’s like the world goes silent.”
My wife said to me today.
Not sure if that is good or bad
Maybe I talk too much when awake
But regardless, her words, strangely
Moved me.

I’ll return as soon as I am cognizant. Love said.

Baby butterfly
And ants beneath her
Not to mention doves trying to land on spinning feeder
And clouds and volcanoes
All proclaiming, it is today.

Go slowly today
Until you really
Need to speed up.
For love’s sake—both
Slow and fast.

Diary notes

11 Monday Aug 2025

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Diary notes, towards an art gallery:

WHAT WOULD MY OWN ART STUDIO LOOK LIKE?
 Tom Wait’s in “Mystery Men”! Meets Anselm! Lots of objects of possibility around like in my dream. Two headed brooms, and old fossils and sky watching equipment…sort of the objects I have crammed into the Duck now. I couldn’t really pull that off in San Fran. But maybe in Europe? As it is, I’m always in other’s studios or in their backrooms. But what if I had my own?! Hum….like that house in my dream with many floors, theaters and bowling alleys. Sort of like the Alamo space they took over from the local school. Old poster art everywhere, and film archives etc. That’s the style of space I could make art in. Hum….whatcha think God? OR am I one who just creates on the run or road? And or, should I incarnate part of my studio metaphor in this new structure we are building? Hum….in some ways, the space dictates the type of art we make. You can see this with the abstractionist studios…..hum…..all I know is that I am getting to the point where I’m making enough interesting art, it would be fun to have room to show and share or show and tell about/from it!
I’ve always wanted a space like Julio’s house, where I could make it all magical, and share my dream life with others. Hum….I saw warehouses or old abandoned churches possible spaces…..
I’ve always wanted some space I could take people into which inspired them, was out of the ordinary. Something which imparted wonder. Amy’s thing is different. That’s ok. But maybe I need my own art studio wonder cathedral space to incarnate who I am in Him? Or shall I always be an in between artist leaving my poems of bathroom walls and fences? I really don’t know. But an airplane hanger would be cool! Thankful for what I have to incarnate now, but I can see the type of space I would flourish in! As in my dreams! And not unlike Tom Wait’s space in that film. OR what Guido is building! Hum….
And yet some of the best art was made in rented apartments in low income neighborhoods! We are framed by what we are given. I do feel like my ellipses are spilling out the windows now though! I’ve got more art that I can house! And some of it is ok, if not good yet! I’ll keep making it better.

Old cameras, radios, sky watching apparatus, circus poster art, film archives, objects of possibility….my kind of art studio. Old statues from churches, airplane fuselage, school buses….Meziprostor, meets, the St Lous museum, meets Anselm, meets Tom Waits….thinking of spaces which have inspired me, much more than museums…..I usually just pop up my mobile tent, but what if my art studio were a permanent installation which could be shared with generations to come…..an art amusement park of sorts. Like that crazy guy in the desert, or the other fellow in the Deep South who preached his sermons on in spray paint on old cars….what we birth in our studios, those metaphors spill out into the general world and even the overflow is inspiring!
A place to house and unpack my metaphors! Yes, Lord.
I would want it very unique and identity focused. Really authentic. Where would I even start Lord? TO build my rooftop art studio to frame what I carry in You? It would be very social! Like Warhol’s space.
I always wanted to live in one of the coolest places I’ve found. Now I have an ambition to make one! So others can live inside the church circus! This project has some of it, but not all I see. I want a place of wonder! A chapel to wonder! A Big Top! Or to be part of building and creating that magical space!
Spaces that really inspire! Like Julio’s house or Guido’s gallery house etc. That level! What normally happens with me, is that I find those spaces and bless them. But what if I lived in one! Or, what if I already do! My life is not ordinary, I know that. I myself am a traveling circus. But to have a structure which reflected it! Wow! Living art, that people could come to after I crossed over!

Creatures……and stuff……

29 Tuesday Jul 2025

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Trees in stained glass
How we imagine glory
Reaching upwards
But rooted in brown earth.
//
Squirrel song
At dawn, she was busy and frisky.
Then by afternoon, busy again (but more languidly), this time tight rope walking
Across our human telephone wires. Then by evening, burying nuts
From God’s trees. And there is no retirement for her. She leaps freely,
Across our days. Like a quick poem.
//
Cardinals, when young, try to grow Mohawks
But do so slowly, so at first
It is just a tuff- side-tucked;
Trying to be cool
Enough to join the crew
And turn pure red.
Like their parents.

How i wanna die

29 Tuesday Jul 2025

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No histrionics please
Let me die as a quiet leaning sign
By the edge of a long country road
Running between nations.
No billboard, brand or live streaming please.
Like a blue bird who is done with flight,
And simply falls to the ground on a certain night, readied
To fly into the next Sky, by morning-
As some sort of angel
I presume. Carrying her own history
With her—as we do
On wings of another’s Glory.

Another to Merton on how i want to die

29 Tuesday Jul 2025

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To Thomas Merton:

Let me die in plein aire in plain air or water or something alive.
No hospitals please! No tubes and incisions, or heavy after-costs.
Just bird songs, and people building things, or planting potatoes;
And breeze—oh yes, please let there be a breeze-
Preferably from the East.
And if, they cut my head off, fine
As long as I’m languid, rested and wild
And thankful that it was quick!
Like a fox who darts out, suddenly hit by a car
Or a squirrel who takes one too many leaps of faith
And lands on a transfuser in rain
Or a monk who gets electrocuted in a bathtub
While studying stillness.
Let me die like that,
Or like Enoch who saved
On funeral costs! Or, Elijah, who simply ascended….
Or Philip who saved on airfare.

To Merton

29 Tuesday Jul 2025

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To Thomas Merton:

Let me die in plein aire in plain air or water or something alive.
No hospitals please! No tubes and incisions, or heavy after-costs.
Just bird songs, and people building things
And breeze—oh yes, please let there be a breeze-
Preferably from the East.
And if, they cut my head off, fine
As long as I’m languid, rested and wild
And thankful that it was quick!
Like a fox who darts out, suddenly hit by a car
Or a squirrel who takes one too many leaps of faith
And lands on a transfuser in rain
Or a monk who gets electrocuted in a bathtub
While studying stillness.
Let me die like that,
Or like Enoch who saved
On funeral costs!
Or Philip who saved on airfare.

The Text

24 Thursday Jul 2025

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How it began

Curt played a baroque flute now, but really he was a singer. He lost his range and couldn’t get church gigs anymore, even through he knew every Handel and Bach song by heart, and could do all the notation.
After he couldn’t get work in the churches around town, he decided to take up flute. He already knew classical flute and wanted a new challenge, so he took up baroque flute. At his age, this was a bold move.
He ordered his first one from Germany—hand made mahogany with a red toned finish.
All these years, his wife had wanted him to give up music and get a real job. And he had tried. He taught music theory for a while at the local community college. But after a year, he realized he really didn’t like teaching. He was a practitioner after all. He prided himself on being a real practitioner. So he returned to singing, until the accident.
He thought it was just age, but he had fallen off his bike one day and landed right on the front of his neck. Something had been damaged in his wind pipe. He went to the doctor, who said he had some internal bruising, but should be fine.
He wasn’t, by the next week, he had lost his upper register.
It never came back after that fall.
So he had to choose a new medium. He chose the baroque flute. It would take time to learn well, and he needed to meet someone who could accompany him as he did. A harpsichordist would be ideal.
So he put a notice up on line: “Looking for a harpsichordist to play baroque music with; if interested call Curt.”
A week later, a woman wrote him, and said she would adore playing baroque again. That music, especially baroque, was a passion she couldn’t let go of-it was her first love and passion. Where could they meet.
He still had access to the community college’s rehearsal hall. So he decided they meet there.
Three days later they did.
She was tall and had long black hair and high cheek bones and slavic eyes. She must be Czech or Russian he thought, as she walked in. Wow, she even looks baroque!
The rehearsal room had a harpsichord in the corner, and after introducing themselves, they decided to get right into playing.
Just then, right before they started playing, he got a text from his wife.
“If you return to music, I’m leaving.” Was all it said.
He took a deep breath, pulled out his new flute, and said to the tall woman—“Ok, where shall we begin?”

The Proposal

24 Thursday Jul 2025

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All his life he had traveled. Traveling was home to him. Now all that had changed. With the pandemic and his illness he was stuck in one place.
So, he had to figure out something. How do people stay in one place? He wasn’t sure.
Then he met the nurse Pam. He had more than attraction, when she was giving him a bath in the mornings, He wanted to see inside her to be one. This had never happened to him. When she came into the room, he felt that old feeling like he was traveling, but it was more like scuba diving in this case.
He had never scuba dived but now could imagine it through his feelings for Pam.
This must be why people stay married, he thought, and just choose one person to go deeper and deeper with, into the endless mystery of identity. Or something like that anyway.
Still, even with Pam, he needed to get out.
The courtyard of the old red brick hospital was lined with Crepe Myrtles—pink mostly but one had pink and white blossoms on the same tree.
He noticed them daily, in order to keep in sync with the seasons through his window on the fourth floor, but he felt so removed from them, like looking at a painting, but not being able to smell and touch the subject. Life had become a simulacrum, and he wasn’t sure he could live in a copy of life without touching the real thing.
So, he asked Pam one day—“Can you take me down to the courtyard?” She said the doctor had forbidden him to leave the floor he was on. But she would “See what I can do.”
One night, he heard a creak at his door. It was close to midnight, so he was startled. It was Pam.
Come on Sean, let’s go.
She had a flashlight, which was the only light on the floor. She took him to the fire escape down the hall, and quietly opened the door. The night air arrested him with life. He was suddenly intoxicated feeling.
He grabbed her hand, so as not to stumble down the steep steel stairs.
Once at the bottom, she turned off the flashlight and everything was moon illuminated. She led him to a bench just beneath the half circle of trees.
He could not see their color at night, but the powdery fragrance they emitted seemed to enter his pores. He suddenly felt so alive again!
They sat down together, at first at a distance, then Pam drew closer. It was almost too much stimulation for Sean.
“I wanted to tell you something.” She said.
“The doctor said, you may not have long, which is why I’m sneaking you out.”
At first, he didn’t respond, as he was so overwhelmed by all the new sensations.
Then snapping out of it, he said: “Well then, would you marry me?”

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