What would it look like if we were just fully being ourselves before God. That’s the feeling i had in my dream last night. I was just fully living before Him even in my imperfections. And one of the fruits is I had no fear of others–either their judgements, rejections, or that they could steal some part of me, because I was living fully before God who was pleased that I was. God is not looking for our perfection, but for intimacy with us.

Had two really cool dreams last night. In the first I was in outer space looking at the earth, and I heard a Voice say God is One, then i panned all the way down to earth and saw all the cancerous divisions in things–people, nature, leaves everything. Things were either increasing in chaos and decay and deterioration, and division or coming together into integrated identities. Things in Him were gathering into identity, things not in Him were dividing and disintegrating. Then i panned back up and heard Him say, “And My attention is undivided.” I immediately sensed that God’s entire heart was on this project of making things whole or themselves through His Son, and that Father was already leaning in, and considering standing up and coming more fully into His Creation again. Cosmic dreams are the best. Somehow it was comforting to think about the Oneness of God coming to earth! Especially when i saw how cancerous and divided things were becoming.

In the other dream i was fully myself, had feathers in my hair and was giving my treasures without fear to others. I was completely myself before God. Not yet perfect, but comfortable being who I was where I was at in my growth before Him, and others. I was not defined by others, nor afraid that they could take anything away from me. I was living before God. I was free to be me. He took great pleasure in me just being myself. It was a great dream, i woke up feeling His pleasure, and very much myself. Just to know that no matter our level of spiritual growth, if we are living before God He is happy with us, gave me such Peace. I didn’t need to get to a certain stage before I could bring Him pleasure, just by turning and living before Him in humility and trust, made Him Happy. He is not looking for our perfection, but for intimacy. We get intimate by confessing and admitting our need for and wonder in Him. This is the pleasing sacrifice of our self sufficiency. Having the full permission to be completely ourselves before God, to stop hiding, was so liberating. Realizing i did not need to be perfect before living before Him.

Daniel was a spiritual genius. Not because of his gifts, but because He was completely dependent on God. Dependency pleases God.